LOST SHELTERED CHILD...BE WILD BE FREE!!!

i don't blog when im sad...or saddish...for some reasom i find feel as though...when i do...all these words streaming onto the page, are grave and dramatic and unreasonable...so harsh...we can be with ourselves...


But in all honesty i find that when these words streaming onto the page are reread and rethought...things are never really that bad...ever...really...NEVER...
These inner workings...when it comes to the bad things...sometimes are not even about the current situation...but a reminicent of past conflicts...past hurts....past suckiness!! The actual situation at hand is not even that bad...and after all if you can conquer it once...why wouldn't you be able to conquer it again...


So much of who you are is decided by the story you tell yourself everyday...of the things that you have accepted or believe is said by others...all in all...only you can decide...who you are...who you will be...who you can be...who you choose to be...


So I have labeled myself 'Lost' 'Sheltered' 'Child' for far too long...when in essence I am neither lost, nor as sheltered as I used to be...and for goodness sake i'm a freakin woman now...LOL...

I know what i want from this world. I know who I am. I know who I will be. I know what name I want for myself. I know how I want to be remembered.

I shall be open to experiences. I am traveling...I have always wanted to...and now I'm doing it! I shall be open to new found friends. I shall be open to random ass adventures...I always have been, I always will be. I will be open to love...though it freaks the hell out of me. I shall eat more and complain less. I shall laugh more and roll my eyes less. I shall live more and question less. 


I am pretty damn naive and gullible...I cannot help that...actually I can...and I choose to be that way. Life experiences...not everyone has it easy...not saying my life has been easy...but life really hasn't been that hard...I haven't struggled for food or water...I have always had a roof on my head...food on the table...I really think it is time to give back...this part i have yet to figure out...


I don't know where or when but I had always thought of myself as this girl...who didn't know what she wanted, was trying to find herself, was looking around at the world trying to figure out what was what??

Now I am a woman, who knows what she wants, knows that it is up to her to create who she is, who looks at the world in wonderment at the endless opportunities it has to offer.

When I say "BE WILD....BE FREE!!" I mean it in the sense that...do whatever you freaking want!! Whenever you freaking want!!! You decide!! You only live life once...don't have any regrets....be who you are...whoever that that is...whoever you want to be. I know it's a hard ask sometimes...but once you figure out who you are...it just falls into place, where and when you are ready!! Actually ready!! Not kinda ready!! LOL

I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR!!!

lover you

your self aware independent woman!!

xo felt