I JUST WANT TO TOUCH THE SKY

So Lovers and Friends...

Hope life has been treating you all well...since I haven't blogged properly in a lifetime of light years...be ever ready for one hella long post...you have been warned *beams*

I just got back from dinner with a few friends and I really really have to share with you this story...one friend let's call her Bella...is soft spoken, shy, warm, friendly and just an absolutely gorgeous girl...she told me about how she in all seriousness believes that one day...she will be walking down the road with books in hand and due to her utter clumsiness will drop these books on the floor...as she starts to pick them up a complete stranger will come to help and their hands would ever so lightly touch, she would look up to see who this helpful person is and as their eyes met, they would just know...in that very instant that theirs was a love that would stand the test of time...so romantic right?? *wink*wink* It just makes for such beautiful "how they met" story, it's the stuff that movies are made out of...highly unrealistic...BUT I guess you never know...Life has a way of surprising you...It could happen...Bella is beautiful...the love that she could only have dreamed of will find her one day!!!

I have had a very very very strange wake up call. Have you ever found yourself giving someone else advice....profound advice...life altering...maybe not that drastic...but really great advice...then listening to yourself and realising...why am I not following my own advice?? My own profound advice...life altering...maybe not that drastic..but really great advice??

Sometimes it is so hard to see the situation for what it truly is because you are right there, in and amongst it, its just so close to you, so close to your heart...and I for one am completely guilty of being completely oblivious and blind to things...my family and my closest friends...who give me the best advice know that I when I have decided on something no matter how bad it is for me, I will not listen to a word they say...in one ear out the other...actually I do listen I just don't adhere to what they are saying...even when they are making complete and utter sense...I just refuse to see the light even though the light is threatening to blind me...haha...

Love is not a feeling it is a decision. A conscious decision that you constantly make, day in, day out, through the good and the bad, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health till death do you part...man I have watched to many chick flicks LOL

OK so totally going of tangent, kinda...I didn't write for awhile because I had all these negative feelings and was just feeling a little sad...not a sadness that was in your face...just this tiny lingering emotion that wasn't too evident..it just kept lingering...it was just there...and no matter how tiny it was...the more I paid attention to it...the bigger it got...

I just want to touch the sky...

maybe that simply put means be happy...but you and I both know that happiness is also a decision....we decide what we think about...what we focus on...which leads to how we feel...I don't know if I'm making any sense to you but I'm making complete and utter sense to me....so therapeutic blogging...just gotta love it...so now this burden of negative crap has been lifted through a series of conversations about my not understanding how stupid the situation is, and my steadfast stubbornness and pure non-application of common sense from family and friends, also through the sharing of other peoples problems...other people have a lot bigger problems than I do...a whole lot more to think about than I do...have a lot less than I have...I guess I'm back to my more appreciative state...feeling very blessed to have such great relationships with my family and friends...I really am lucky...I seriously have nothing to be complaining about...I just have to chill the #$% out...and just breathe...

In regards to work...in this new job...I am a complete and utter princess...no joke...I am so very hard to handle...so demanding...so impatient...so determined...so blunt...so cocky...because I am so worth it...and I can get away with it LOL See this attitude seems to work for me...

It's weird because with the whole love thing...when I actually care about the person...I am a complete door mat...no joke...so easy going...maybe too easy going...so trusting...so patient...so easily taken advantage of...if I ever got to that stage...I am completely different to my work persona....like complete other side of the spectrum....I just...I just don't get it...and its totally not working for me...but that is only when I actually like the person...when I don't care and I don't like the person...I'm my work persona which seems to work....this...this just completely boggles my mind...if you figure it out...please please please let me in on it...I'll be your best friend haha

Well one can only laugh at oneself....Live and learn...let's hope I learn...HAHA

I just want to touch the sky...

As of lates...I have had this growing feeling of positivity...maybe its because im setting goals...maybe its because the whole negativity thing has been lifted...I have no idea...but I have decided that I like this feeling and I shall let it continue to grow and flourish within my world...

A fair few amazing things are happening right now...work is going great and I can see really big things starting to enfold but that isn't it...or maybe that's part of it...family and friends are amazing...I am truly blessed...but that can't be completely it...maybe it is in the reaching for the sky....maybe that is it...

I just want to touch the sky...

LOVE ODDLES

XO felt